Being home is weird. Stress isn't gone, it's just changed. But stress is worse at home because there's less to distract me, and it seems so wrong to feel unhappy in California. I hate making decisions that will influence more than the rest of my day.
At least Pampo is here. I mean Lucy. It's hard to start calling her by her real name. She's the most adorable baby--I'm in love. Sometimes I'm timid around babies, especially newborns, because I don't want to make a wrong move. They're so fragile! But this baby is mine, so I don't worry. Lucy and I are comfortable. She sleeps on me, I change her diaper, we're buds.
I miss Provo and Park Place and life there.
I miss some things. And someones.
At least Pampo is here. I mean Lucy. It's hard to start calling her by her real name. She's the most adorable baby--I'm in love. Sometimes I'm timid around babies, especially newborns, because I don't want to make a wrong move. They're so fragile! But this baby is mine, so I don't worry. Lucy and I are comfortable. She sleeps on me, I change her diaper, we're buds.
I miss Provo and Park Place and life there.
I miss some things. And someones.
