dang it

I feel sick.  I am so worried about getting sick right now.   I'm sure that being stressed about getting sick is adding to my sickness.  It's my last three weeks of school and I have a LOT to do about that.  Plus I'm trying to work out everyday.  And I hate missing work.  And once school slows down, my family is coming for graduation and I don't want to be sick for that!  I can't kiss Lucy eight million times if I'm sick.  So, in hopes that "taking it easy" will help, I didn't go to work today.  If I can miss one day of work and thereby save myself from missing more than one day by being sick, I would consider that worth it.  So here I am, taking it easy...stressing about the million things that I have to be doing.  I still have to go to my classes today--skipping is NOT an option.  I am not freaking out.  I might be standing on the precipice, but I am NOT there yet.  I'm going to cling to this not-freaking-out-ness for as long as possible!

So, I woke up and showered and got ready this morning, because I wasn't planning on missing work.  That means I went back to sleep in my full, fresh eyemakeup and hair that wasn't quite dry yet--I'm scared to get up and look in the mirror.  Oh, and instead of going back to sleep peacefully, I had a bad dream about Kyle turning into a werewolf.  He was still nice and everything, and I stood by him, but all of our friends rejected him and threatened to turn him in to the police (because you can get arrested for being a werewolf).  For some reason it as so upsetting!  I guess it was hiding from the cops that was stressful.  Anyways, not a good dream.

This week we planned our meals.   And they are real, good meals, including vegetables.  It's really fun and gives me something to look forward to...but I'm kind of wondering why we started THIS week.  Maybe a month from now would be better.  But maybe I just want to put off writing my papers, so I cook instead.  Foolish.  I also decided to start running every day.  Umm...when, Becca?  In all the time that you DON'T have?  Good idea.

Where was I going with this?  Oh yeah.  Taking it easy.  Yeah right.