I feel like now that it's been 6 weeks, I have to be completely healed, feel like my old self, and get back to real life and responsibilities. But see, the trouble is, I'm not ready to not be postpartum. My abdomen still hurts from surgery. I don't sleep enough or eat normally. And taking care of this baby takes up all of my day, it feels like! Before, I had the postpartum excuse. It's overwhelming to all of the sudden have to also clean and cook and work out and be normal. I don't know why or when I got the idea into my head that 6 weeks was the time when I had to get back to life, but I wish I hadn't. Now, if I don't do the things I think I should, I'll feel guilty. DANG IT.
I have this girl to make me smile though: