Thursday, April 7, 2011

Self-Esteem

My self-esteem is based on such arbitrary things. These lists are silly because most of the items have very little to do with my efforts or control.  The bad things mostly aren't my fault, and the good things I shouldn't get credit for.  They really don't say anything about me, really. I know that they don't reflect on me personally or influence how cool I am.  BUT--there you go.


Things that make me feel good about myself
  • I weigh less now than I did when I got pregnant
  • I am well-read and well-watched (I know that's not a thing)
  • Ruby is super healthy
  • Kyle and I are financially stable and secure with no debt
  • My Pinterest boards are pretty and repinned all the time
  • I'm making great progress on my Goodreads 2011 Reading Challenge
  • I didn't freak out about getting a c-section and I recovered without too much whining to Kyle
  • I'm really good at embroidering Daleks onto pillows
  • We own our home
  • My husband is so attractive and a scientist (hot!)


Things that make me feel lame
  • I eat really unhealthy food
  • I weigh more now than I did when I got married
  • I have brown hair now
  • I love playing Backyard Monsters on Facebook
  • I love Facebook
  • I have a hard time falling asleep at night, so I am incapable of getting up early
  • I live in Utah
  • I wear sweats a LOT these days
  • I rarely cook lately

These lists could go on and on, but it's probably not super healthy to make them.  I dwell too much on what's wrong with me.  Kyle says I have a habit of negative self-feedback or something like that.  I do say a lot of bad stuff about myself.  If I make a wrong turn in the car, I say "I am such an IDIOT."  If I mess up a recipe, I moan about how I suck.  I don't really mean it, but still, I have a very negative vocabulary.  I'm trying to quit, but it's a hard habit to break!

Cute picture of Ruby and her dimply bum:


4 comments:

Kayla said...

I think you're beautiful and super cool. That should count for something, in my super professional opinion.

Kayla
Freckles in April | a modest fashion and lifestyle blog

Coach Vaughn said...

You're great, and I won't allow anyone (including you) to talk bad about my wife.

Jennifer Ricks said...

Hey! I think that list of good things way outweighs the other! You forgot to add the Ruby is super beautiful and adorable and amazing. And the C-section thing is one of most phenomenal things on your list! When it all happened, I couldn't believe how brave you were! I would have been a mess!

Celia said...

We have ALL the same "lame" things. ALL of them, even the Backyard Monsters thing and being a brunette.

I am sorry for contributing to your "lameness." :) But I LOVE YOU and everything on that list. If you didn't live in Utah, I'd be sad. And if you cooked all the time, we could never have Papa Murphy pizza parties. (Also, your life isn't about me, I realize, but you get my point)>