In which I don't reveal too much about myself

I just made 2 lists for this post: 1) ways that I am vain and snobbish, and 2) ways that I am insecure and have low self-esteem.  But then I decided to not reveal so much about myself.  So, just let it be known that I am a total snob and also have a poor self-image.  I am sincere in both ways.  How does that work? I just don't know.

Now that I am totally an insomniac and can't fall asleep until 4 AM every night, I watch even more tv online.  Let's just say that Fringe makes it a lot more fun to stay up at night.  That show is so good!  I also get to look at Kyle more when he's asleep (pretend that instead of being creepy, it's sweet.  Ok?).  I have decided that when sleeping, he is absolutely beautiful.  Sorry, Kyle.  He's hot when he's awake, but when he's sleeping...beautiful is the only word for it.  Alan? As Kyle's former roommate, do you agree?  (Umm you should probably just say no.)

There was this sign in Hawaii on our trolley, saying who shouldn't be enjoying our trolley ride.  This is someone with heart problems:

This is someone who is pregnant:

For some reason, we thought that was so funny.  It looks like someone who is in love and someone with a giant tumor.  I wish that I was pregnant so that I could announce my pregnancy with that sign on my blog.   If you ever see it again on this blog, that will probably be why.

If anyone who reads this blog has some sweet hookups to a job in California that is micro/molecular biology related, PLEASE HIRE KYLE.  I want to move!

Yis

Oh, blogging.  Some blogs have been bugging me but I'm trying not to let it turn me off of the whole thing.  Blogs are still good.

I have been having problems sleeping.  I'm already a problematic sleeper.  Since marriage, I've been weird about Kyle falling asleep before me (which he does almost every night).  Oh that sounds sketchy, we did sleep separately before marriage.  But like, it didn't bug me when my roommate fell asleep before me.  It just feels so lonely to be lying awake next to a sleeping person.  I feel like it's 10x harder for me to fall asleep if he's already asleep.  Is that weird?  Why didn't I notice when I was living with someone else?  Anyways, the last couple of nights I just can't fall asleep period.  Instead of going to sleep at 11, which is normal for us, I stay up until 4:30 or so.  I just can't sleep before then--I definitey try!  Then I wake up at 11 or 11:30 and hate myself!  It sucks.  I want to get back on a regular schedule.  What the frick.

Oh yeah, Hawaii.  It was great!  We had a ton of fun.  I'm not freakishly tan but I am ALSO not freakishly sunburned--thank you, Dad, for teaching me the art of slathering on sunscreen.  Unfortunately, Kyle and I are sucky picture-takers.  I never realized how much I depend on Katy to be our photographer!  So we have some pictures but none of them are amazing, oh well:

What IS amazing is Hollywood today.  Last night we saw Terminator Salvation and a couple of days ago we saw the new Star Trek.  OH MY GOSH.  I love movies.  I love those movies.  Life is so good when there are movies to enjoy and look forward to enjoying.  Star Trek was a charm and a delight.  Simon Pegg AND Karl Urban being cute and funny?  And I teared up a couple times because I love Leonard Nimoy so much.  Terminator Salvation was great--it was intense, had its own plot, had Christian Bale in it, and some lines from the original to make me laugh.

So, now that Hawaii is over, I need some new excitement to look forward to.  Next up is in mid-June--Katy's triumphant return!  I have been missing her like CRAZY.  It'll be so good to see her again, even if it is just for a couple of days before she goes to California.  And then a couple of weeks later is our family reunion in LA, and THEN we're going to DISNEYLAND, and then I get to spend some days in Concord!  In the meantime, my plans with Emily will start.  We now both have sewing machines AND I subscribed to Netflix.  I can't wait!

for realsies

Tomorrow night, I will be sleeping here:

I'm not saying this to brag or rub it in your face, just to force myself to believe it.  I'm not convinced.  I don't really feel like tomorrow I'm going to Hawaii with Kyle to celebrate our first anniversary.  First of all, it doesn't feel like we've been married a whole year.  I'm not quite ready to not be a newlywed anymore.  It still feels like a recent event--I'm not used to it yet. But it's true--last year, at this time, we were in the throes of wedding preparation.  Man.  A whole year ago.

Second of all, Kyle and I are not the kind of people who go to Hawaii.  Our honeymoon was a very reasonable trip to Monterey, a mere two hour drive, which is as paradisiacal as I need.  The last plan we had for our anniversary (before we decided on Hawaii) was to go to Las Vegas--which is what, six hours away? 

Anyways, though I'm feeling stressed about airport business and packing, I'm not quite even to the excited anticipatory pre-trip stage.  I'm hoping that I'll get there before we get there, because that's part of the fun.  

While in Hawaii, we are going to visit the Polynesian Cultural Center, explore the giant maze at the Dole Pineapple Plantation, go kayaking in Kailua, go snorkeling in Hanauma Bay, hike Diamond Head crater, and laze around for hours on the beach.  We may not do some of those things, we may do different things.  I don't know yet.  I DO know that it will be amazingly fun and hopefully relaxing.  I'm mostly excited to spend the days with Kyle--it's such a big deal that he won't be at work!  I've been so stressed about what clothes to bring and how many books I need and finding my camera battery charger that I haven't even spent much time thinking about the reason for the trip, the whole anniversary thing.  I will though.  This DOES mean that everyone is spared a sappy post about how much I love Kyle.  You're welcome.

remember that one time?

I never put up any graduation pictures.  If this is going to be a blog book someday (possibly...all the cool kids are doing it), I can't just leave out big events.  So HERE are some:

A couple funny Lucy things:

--Although she knows the name, if you ask Lucy to say "dog" she replies with "oof-oof."   Similarly, her name for "hot dog" is "yummy oof-oof."   Horrifying?

--She loves talking to me on the phone.  Christy uses this to bribe Lucy when she's being cranky or doesn't want her diaper changed.  She gets on the phone ("Hi Bec!") and starts talking a mile a minute.  I catch an occasional "ElmoAbby" in there.  We generally talk about her toys and her mommy.  She answers my questions ("Ahuh!") and gives kisses to everything around her ("Mmmmwah!") and eventually Christy has to pry the phone away from her ("Bye Bec!").  It totally makes me day, year, and life.

She is too funny! I love her.

Kyle is sick but still at work.  I feel bad for him.  At least he's sick now and not on THURSDAY when we go to HAWAII.  Oh man.

The Verdict(s)

I loved this book.  Yeah, it was dark and creepy and sad.  It totally spoke to me though.  That might be because I love post-apocalyptic/zombie books.  It did, however, feed my fear of my loved ones dying, so it was also upsetting--but that might just be me.  It was really beautifully written though, and I had a hard time putting it down.  It's definitely a read-it-all-in-one-day book.  I wasn't totally fulfilled by the ending, but that's just because I'm curious about what happened to some of the characters.

Obernewtyn is pure fun.  It's pure teenage fantasy fun.  AND it's the beginning of a sizeable series, so that's always good news.  It was a good one to keep in my purse and read in my free time, no matter where I was.  There better be more romance in the next one though!  The hints were killing me.

I'm not a book reviewer, mind you.  Nor am I super sophisticated.  Maybe after I read Middlemarch.

Puppy of my heart, I love you

This is Chi Chi.

Kyle and I gave him to Lucy for her 2nd birthday.

She loves him.

He walks and barks and "playfully pounces."

Chi Chi wakes people up in the morning and plays with the whole family.

You should hear his cute little bark.

He just has the cutest face.  And that bandana!

We love Chi Chi.

lately

How do I feel about...

Graduation:
I honestly don't feel it yet. It's fun to come home from work and not worry about homework, but I don't feel completely stress-free still. Everyone tells me it will hit in September when I'm not back in school--I guess we'll see. Graduation (ceremony) was pretty stressful, and I cared a lot more that it was Lucy's 2nd birthday, so I didn't care much for it. I got a beautiful pearl necklace from my parents as my graduation gift, as well as other awesome presents from other family members, so that helped me feel like I did something worthwhile--but I still don't feel like I achieved anything amazing. Maybe I just know that soon, I'll miss listening to amazing professors spout knowledge. Tonight I'm going out to dinner in Salt Lake City with some of my work friends as a little celebration that Jessica and I graduated. We're going to The Dodo, which I have always seen and wondered about--I'm pretty excited.

Almost Everyone I Normally Spend Time With Leaving Me:
Not cool, guys. On Sunday Lucy/Christy/Danny/Mom/Dad left and I was sad. I also had to say goodbye to KATY that day--that sucked big time. I really miss her. Celia is also gone (and ALSO on Sunday)--there goes one of my last friends! I've lived with/consistently hung out with Celia for the last 4 years. And I just found out last night that Katy P. is moving back to Seattle. I admit that I'm not handling this amazingly. I hate goodbyes more than anything. It makes me sad. I miss people. I still have people to be with--Kyle, for one. And we always hang out with CB/Emily, which is freakishly fun. But still--saying goodbye is the worst.

Working fulltime:
It's aight.

Not working starting May 11:
Really excited! Emily and I have all kinds of plans, related to: sewing projects, non-sewing projects, gardening, and cooking. In addition, I have a huge stack of books to read, a Netflix subscription to purchase, and an apartment that I'd love to keep clean.

Going to Hawaii in 2 weeks:
SWEET.

He's Just Not That Into You:
Mixed feelings. It was funny and entertaining and had some cute parts. But also, half the theater walked out (this being Provo and all). It was pretty nasty at times. Drew Barrymore continues to almost ruin every movie she's in, regardless of the size of her role, Scarlett Johansson was unbelievably trashy, and you can't help but hate skeazy Will from Alias. BUT I always like Justin Long even though his character was mostly a jerk, it was easy to identify with some of the poor pathetic girls, and Jennifer Connelly is super hot.



Anyways, I just want this work day to be over so I can go to dinner with Kyle and my friends. It will be most fun. Have you SEEN the menu? Have you HAD baked cream cheese, marinated in soy sauce, breaded with toasted sesame seeds, served with crackers and apple slices? I haven't either but I'm GOING TO. TONIGHT.